Love, Loss, and Life.

I've been reflecting a bit on my life as of late and thinking about the past. Sometimes this is a good thing, sometimes its not. This time, I believe it to be a good thing though. Over the past year I've seen couples break up after years of being together and I've seen some get married and tie the knot. Being that I'm rather tired, I'm just going to cut to the chase about what's on my mind right now.
When I was a teenager, there were some guys I dated and there were some guys I wanted to date but they didn't want to. I guess one would call that rejection. I am now 28 years old and I would like to say something to the guys out there that never did date me. Thank you. Wait a second (you may be asking)....are you actually thanking them for rejecting you, Susan? Oh yes, I am.
You see, the past five years I've been with the man that I had always dreamed of. We've had some rough times  and we've had some good times together, but all in all...I'm so happy to be with Gary. He really makes me happy and I love Him more each day that I look at Him. Each time, its like I'm falling in love with Him all over again. He's helped me through my insecurities, my depression, my heartache and He's built me up and has made me a better woman.
So, when I say thanks to the guys in the past that never dated me ...simply for the reason of : Thanks for not wasting my time. I think sometimes that it takes more of a heart to reject one because that way, you're not wasting your time and you're not wasting their time either. I'd rather know something up front than live a lie.
The reason I'm saying this is that I've seen some guys do that. It goes for a woman too. They force themselves (for whatever reason) to be with someone. Also, through them not dating me it left me open to find my (I know it's cliche) Knight.
I've been thinking about that this past week and I hope that I got my thoughts across correctly. So, the past is the past and Gary is my past five years, my present, and my future. I hope to have children with Him one day. To have a house and looking for many more years with the love of my life.
After seeing the beautiful wedding today of my best friend and his now wife, it makes me happy that 2 years ago I exchanged vows and it made me remember that day. I wish them well and hope they have many years of happiness as well.
For the other couple that I am friends with that recently broke up, maybe its for the best. You have to go through hell to get to heaven at times.
All in all, things happen for a reason and there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Its not always a train either.
Until next time,
Love and God bless ~Susan