The summer of pain

The last few months have been a rather trying experience. I think this cyst just wants to piss me off. I went a few days without having much pain, just dizziness and then I woke up this morning/evening with a strong burning sensation in the back of my head. Called in and now I'm just trying to let the medicines run through my veins and thinking a lot. I guess things could be worse. They could be better, too though. I just have to somehow survive until next Thursday when I go talk to the neurosurgeon and praying to God that he will agree to do the surgery.

As much as I need that surgery, I'm also scared that it will happen at the same time if that makes any sense at all. I mean, this is my brain here. That little thing in your skull that helps you remember things (which I've had a hell of a time doing lately), keeping balance ( um, problems there too), speaking correctly (I sound like a drunk sometimes and I don't drink), and remaining conscious (which I do black out......)......

....Ok...maybe its a good thing I wrote it out like that because I see it in my face like that. I'm just worried, exhausted, and blah right now.

Other than that, the only thing on my mind at this moment is how much I miss my family and I wish I could be around them through this.

I got other things I could type about, but my opinions probably wouldn't be that popular. I'll probably blog about things such as a woman's right to work, friends, and educational type things. Right now, I'm going back to lay down. Have a good Friday everyone and God bless.