I haven't updated my blog in about a week I think now. I've been dealing with things, real life annoys me. I remember when I was a kid, I was over at my cousin's house and I tripped, fell, and cut my arm all up to shreds on the hard gravel. Of course, being little, I did cry and I ran to mama and daddy. They cleaned my cut, slapped some neosporin on that thing, a band-aid, and gave it a kiss to get better. I wish so badly things could be simple like that. Pretty much, the last few months have been a battle with this cyst. This week, I've had mostly leg problems with the numbness and some tremors in my left hand that freaked me out. Migraines, of course, are always a thing. Right now, I feel OK for the most part. I just pray to God that it continues that way. I really do mean that. I've not given up hope. I just know that soon things will get better and they will work out according to His plan. I've heard that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Well, after dealing with these pains for the last two years and them seemingly worsening, I will say that after its all said and done, I'm going to be one tough chick. Its a nuisance because I miss my health and the way I was. I miss going to work much at all. I really miss interacting with my co-workers and just being out of the house. There's only so much you can look at in a two bedroom apartment. Of course, Snoopy and Ratt keep me pretty entertained, but I'd honestly rather be working and being productive.
If this is coming off as whiny, I truly do not intend it to sound that way. Yes, it sucks and I hate having it in there but I also have some really awesome people in my life. I thank my lucky stars (and God, of course) that my husband is being supportive through all this. He did agree for us to go to an out-of-state doctor, so we'll figure that out for the surgery to get this spider zit out of my noggin. I think he gets aggravated because he can't do anything to help, but he really does help. Just knowing he loves and cares for me means so very much to me. I love my darlin'.
I have a great brother and daddy. They always check on me and send me love.
My "adoptive" family, meaning that they are family even if not blood kin, are the best two men I could ever ever ask for. I love them so much for being so supportive and loving towards me. Lord knows they hear way too many of my rants and ramblings. I bet their ears must be worn out by now. I don't know what I'd do without Kris and Dev, though. I only love them all more each day. It'll work out, I know it...cuz my dad, bro, hubby, and my bffs (zomg) say so and what they say has to happen. =)
Aside from me being sickly, Gary got a digital video camera from work for a reward for being there five years. I might do some videos with the thing when I figure it out and show it to my family and give them some updates. Plus, they can check out my house and everything without the whole driving part lol. It'll be interesting. I'm thinking of doing a testimony for Zach's Youtube, of how I became a Calvinist. We'll see. I'm actually rather shy about that sort of thing, but I might just break out of my shell and give it a go. But, of course, I have to be careful because of the seemingly paleness that bloke noticed I had in the store the other day. I don't take offense to it, really but it was just...lack of better term...odd.
Sorry about the long post, but that's what's been going on in my ordinary life. God bless and much love everyone.
Be good to each other,
Susan <3
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