Well, this is my first blog on this site and I've really not written a blog in a very long time. I used to keep one at my myspace but I haven't even check that in so long, I don't even remember the last thing I even posted on there, honestly. Life has gotten a bit crazy as of late and I haven't had a lot of time to just sit back and relax without worrying so much. Yes, I know that worry is about as effective as chewing a piece of gum to solve an algebraic equation.
Just a summarized version of everything, I've been dealing with sickness and pain for the past few years now. I didn't know exactly what was going on. I was told that I just had migraines that were severe and there was no other explanation after having CAT Scans, MRIs, and Gastrointestinal tests, blood tests (I'm sure that I've had ...Lord I can't tell you the amount of viles I've had extracted from my veins), and all that sort of thing. To make a long story short, I've been diagnosed with what they call an Arachnoid Cyst which is in the posterior fossa on the right side (back of the brain) and there it sits at a size of 3.5cm x 3.0 cm. At first, they told me that this surely couldn't be the cause of all my problems but I beg to differ. There are over 1,000 people world wide that have this same thing with the same symptoms. I stumbled upon this site when I first found out about it, decided to do my own research. I mean. you got something on your brain how could it not be causing some sort of problems. So, right now I'm going through a lot of tests because I do have numbness, black outs, and that of the like accompanying them. I'm in the search for a doctor that will get the fluid off my brain so I can function like I used to be able to.
The good news is that this thing is not cancer. Its benign. Its there, it shouldn't be there, and I want it gone. I don't want just any doctor getting in my head so I'm being carefully and incredibly choosy over who I do go to for the surgery.
I'm not really that depressed that its there, I'm more sad honestly because I find myself not being able to do the things that at one time I never had a problem with doing. Its just strange how frail our bodies are. One moment, you're strong and feel as if you can take on any thing that life throws at you. Some days, I don't really feel that strong but I will fight this thing and will get it taken care of. In the end, I'm not giving up hope and even at my worst, I think and believe that God will see me through this in some shape or form. After all, He is in control of everything. :-)
Now, don't get me wrong. From a human standpoint at times, I do get sad about it but that is only a passing moment. Things will work out for the best and according to His plan.
In any case, that's pretty much what I'm dealing with at this point. Just taking one day at a time and doing the best that I possibly can. My mother always did say that she was proud of me as long as I did my best...and that ...at this point in my life..is exactly what I'm trying to do.
Keeping my faith in God, loving Him and Jesus and the Holy Spirit, clinging to my family and the best friends I could ever hope to have. Love is a powerful thing and can walk through fire without blinking.
Until next time, love Susan.
http://arachnoidcyst1.com/articles.html
The above is a link to the Arachnoid Cyst support group and forum that I've joined. Many wonderful people there.
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